5/12/2021 - United States
My precious girls, Sara and Rebecca
Baby Name: Sara Rachel and Rebecca Lynne

My two precious girls. I miss you everyday. Sara, you were my first. I was forced into aborting you. Even at the doctors office, I told the nurse I have changed my mind. She said, “You will be better off, it is not a baby, just tissue. The doctor came in, heard me protesting my abortion. He said, “It’s too late” And I was out. I blocked much of it.

Rebecca, I am sorry my precious. This time I blocked all of what I had done. You were taken in a hospital. I also had my tubes tied so I would not ever have to make the decision to take another’s life.     



5/5/2021 - Barbados
Elle
Baby Name: Sharyah Christina

Dear Sharyah
How are you doing today?
I don't know your exact birthdate but I hope you had a great birthday last year. Mother's day is coming up, and I wish you were here with me. I never really thought of myself as a mother, but I want you to know that I love you very much. I think you're beautiful and I know you are going to do great things. I can't wait to meet you.
Love "Elle"
AKA Mum        



3/12/2021 - United States
Dear God
Baby Name: Quadruplets

Dear God,
Thank you for hearing my prayer and forgiving my sin. The 4 children are part of your kingdom. I don't deserve to be called mom, and will not make excuses, as a teenager I should have sought help.
They would be 24 years old this year.
Thank you for allowing me to keep the memory of them.
It is my prayer to know them in heaven.
Thank you for their lives and for saving me.
Amen!
Sincerely, from a Jesus blood washed sinner, forgiven, now saved  



3/9/2021 - United States
First baby
Baby Name: Madeline

It's so hard for me to look back at what I did almost 29 years ago.
I'm sorry for taking your precious life and for not being able to watch you grow.
I was terrified especially since I was only fifteen.
I thought if my problem is gone it would never be seen.
For years I tried to hide behind all of my pain,
but instead loneliness, depression, hurt, and guilt is what I gained.
Knowing you're in heaven with God is comforting.
I ask the Lord for forgiveness and to stop the suffering.
You're probably wondering why it took me so long to write you this poem.
I knew of God but needed a relationship with him first in order to really know Him.
Thank you for helping me find my way.
Years later when we were trying to conceive I would kneel down and pray.
I wonder about your dad and pray for him occasionally.
I know he is somewhere thinking about you and grieving in his own way.
I know I can't take back what happened and a piece of my heart is torn.
You have a little brother and we pray often for the unborn.
I love you dearly with all of my heart.
A weekend retreat was truly a blessing and was just the start.
I would love to ask you if you could be a part of our family.
The depths of my soul is what only God can see.

Love,
Mom












          



3/3/2021 - United States
David's sister
Baby Name: Baby Girl

You would have been 21 this year and I think about you every single day. If I could go back and make a different decision and go into hiding I would do it in a heartbeat. I had such false sense of security getting involved with and trusting the brother of my best friend from childhood. He betrayed me (us) in the worst possible way and I gave in to his constant threats. I truly believed my options were death (he would kill me) or prison (because I would have killed him - in self defense) and that I saved three lives that day, yours, your older brother's, and mine. I have always been a fighter and the one time it mattered most, I gave in to fear. It's not okay. Your brother has missed out on so much not growing up with you, I feel heartbreak every single day. I told him about you when he was a young teenager and I know he would have been your protector! I'm so sorry baby girl, I'd give anything to have you back. ~Momma loves you!       



2/28/2021 - United States
BABY MICHEAL
Baby Name: Micheal

Our heartbreak, this was not our choice nor our way. You sweet child will be in our hearts forever, you were loved and the decision to end your life brought pain and anguish to so many family members. Through faith, we know that you are secure in Christ , yet in our flesh, we struggle to deal with this. We may only be your great grandparents, but you are blood of our blood and bone of our bone and will live forever in our hearts.   



2/27/2021 - United States
So loved..but never held....a precious life taken
Baby Name: Micheal James " " (Jami)

My Jami, I love you so so much and I wish more than anything I could of protected you from what was to come. I WANTED YOU, I LOVE YOU...... You were so loved my lil roo, from aunts and uncles to cousins to your brother and sister, can't forget Nana and Papa. You also have a pretty awesome great aunt that cried when you were taken. You my boy will never be forgotten. I am so so sorry that you endured this horrible thing, it's wasn't fair and you deserve so much more. You find your uncle Kaleb and you boys wait for me cause I will be there and I want to scoop you both up and never let go. I know your name is Micheal James, your were supposed to be a Jr., but gma already knew you were my Roo my lil Jami. Fly High and Free Micheal James... Gma love you so so much........      



2/14/2021 - United States
My baby Grace
Baby Name: Grace

My dearest child, I don't know how or why I know you are a girl, because I unwisely chose, under pressure, to take your life. I have always called you Grace. I have grieved you every day of my life. I never had a child. The guilt of denying you life made me feel undeserving. You deserved so much better than me. I know you are pure innocence and light. I have felt your presence. I mark your age. I cry for you. I dream about you. I fear hell, yet hope for heaven, where I can beg your forgiveness. Please know I regret my decision every day of my life. I would have gladly given my life to restore yours. Still would. You are loved. You are mourned. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. I will never forgive myself.      



2/4/2021 - United States
My dear grandchild
Baby Name: Grandchild

My daughter had called me telling me my other daughter, her sister was there at the abortion clinic. She would not talk to me. I knew I would be losing a grandchild in moments and I could not be there to stop her. I would tell her I love you daughter come home, we will figure this out. It’s okay. In my mind, I knew her father was against her having a child because he was a loser, had her go to the strip clubs and take her money. I have document proof of this.

I pray the women out there who are scared and don’t know what to do; do what is right. My boyfriend wanted the same thing-go get rid of the child you are carrying, he said he felt like kicking me in the stomach. It hurts and makes me want to cry when I read this. He is Mr. ManAboutTown and has won awards, etc. I held onto my child, my son and he is with me today. His dad wants nothing to do with him, but it is okay. I get to see him and talk with him every day and his stepfather calls him Bubba and they have conversations together and coffee. My son is 30 and working part time. He has given up on his father ever accepting him or even acknowledging him. He does not call his son. It was the best decision I made to keep my son.

If I could have the opportunity to talk to each woman who is going through this difficult time, I would. I went to a pregnancy counseling center for moral support. I wasn’t going to let anyone touch my child.



2/4/2021 - United States
Heidi R
Baby Name: Michael

My boy. You would have been 40 this year. I think of you often and what could have been. One day I hope to be reunited with you to tell you all the things you need to hear from me and hold you in my arms as I always wanted to. XOXO  



2/4/2021 - United States
Naveah
Baby Name: Neveah

You will never be forgotten my love. Mommy loves you forever. I can’t change the past but I can be your voice for the future. I’ll be seeing you ❤️ 



2/3/2021 - Canada
Mom
Baby Name: Matthew Gorman

Matthew
I wanted you to know that I am doing better and healing. People keep telling me to “let it go” and don’t think about it, but it is so hard not to think about you. I will never be able to express the pain in my heart becuase I did this. This pain lasts forever I am afraid.

I am trying to resume my life and be in the moment. I am not the same person I was back then, and if I could change the past I would in a heartbeat.

Your dad didn’t love me but I loved him!! I loved him too much and he pressured me. I did it for him!! I should have kept you for myself- but I was told keeping you was me being selfish. Why was I so dumb??

You got to skip this crazy life (and I’m sorry for that) but you went straight to God! I asked him to take you back and I hope you are in his loving arms. I didn’t abort you becuase I didn’t love you. I did love you. In my messed up head I was protecting you from a father who wouldn’t love you and our families who I thought wouldn’t accept this and a life of poverty- as I had no education or money.

I wish I had kept you. I love you. Forever and always. Even if I am the only one in the universe who cares- I still do.

So I’ll try to let go and move on for my sanity...but sorry I’ll never be able to forget my child.

You would have been 19 this March. Happy early (almost) birthday. It should have been.

I feel like this is one of those mistakes that follows you until you die. I’ll try my best to learn my lessons and one thing I do look forward to about death is that I’ll get to see you, hug you and be with you finally. I have to live my life here but that makes me feel less scared.

I love you Matthew in a heart aching way only a mother can.

Love
Mom  



2/2/2021 - United States
Selfish
Baby Name: Rocco

Baby Rocco,

I had your father arrested for trying to stab me, I did not know how I was gonna take care of you, I figured since I was only a few weeks it wouldn't matter, I felt your bones as they were taking you out of me. That's when I knew you were a human, a life that I had no right to take for that, I apologize. I hated your father and lived a life of misery. I pray that you are in heaven seated with Your Father who created you before you were in my womb.

You have two brothers here on earth and a sister with two baby siblings in heaven. I'm sorry and now will let God heal me knowing that I am able to tell you that I'm sorry. I so selfishly killed you to live my life here on earth without the burden of another baby. I ask for your forgiveness. Momma  



2/2/2021 - United States
Desperate for Love
Baby Name: Jesus's Son

Dear Baby,

Please forgive me for killing you. I was so desperate for Love that I listened to what your genetic father said "its no big deal, in and out, Ill pay for it. With no Father myself and a raging crazy maniac mother, I was desperate for his approval and fairy tale ending.

I did it, I killed you and never thought about it until today. Today my heart is broken and I repent of my sin and ask God for forgiveness.

I never did get that unconditional love and have lived a life of heart ache unknowing and pushing down not feeling anything. I pray that your in heaven, an angel that did not have to endure the horrible life I had to offer you here down on earth.

Susan 



2/2/2021 - United States
I didn't know your name
Baby Name: Belongs to God

Dear Unborn Baby,

I'm sorry I killed you. The blinds were on and I had no idea what sex, pregnancy and having a baby meant. I was 17 and the man was 24. He took away my innocence and said you were nothing but a blob. I believed him so I went to the abortion clinic and they sucked you out of the womb. I pray that you are seated at the right hand of God and that He has restored you. Please forgive me and know that now that I understand, I love you and wish it could have been different.

Mom - Susan 



1/27/2021 - United States
Sweet angel
Baby Name: Sweet Angel 👼 Ryan or Clare

Hello my sweet little Angel,

I am so sorry for what I did 48 years ago. One day does not go by without my thoughts of regret in not being courageous enough to have you my sweet angel. I know you would have brought me joy, but being a teenager and so naive, I had no one to talk to back then.

I think of you everyday in pray and love. Please know my heart breaks everyday that I didn’t even get to feel you inside of me. I have gone to confession since twice and I know in my heart God has forgiven me, I am ashamed of the circumstance, but I will never be ashamed of you. You were an innocent unborn child and I didn’t know it was a sin. I hope and pray someday that you will forgive me. I also hope and pray that when we meet you will be able to accept me as your mother and forgive for what I did so long ago.

Forever my beautiful and handsome first child of God.
Your mom always in my heart ❤️    



1/27/2021 - United States
Mother
Baby Name: Jean

I don't know if you were a boy or girl but I am so sorry for what I have done. At the time I was scared, selfish, and afraid I didn't even know it was a sin. Years and years went by and one night I went to bed and when I woke up I realized what a horrible sin I had done.

I was devastated and alone in my grief. My heart was in so much pain. I went to confession twice now I realize that God HAS forgiven me and you are with God in Heaven. I still think and talk to you everyday.

I know you have forgiven me and I will be anxiously waiting to see you in Heaven.
Love Always, Mom 



1/19/2021 - United Kingdom
Hayley
Baby Name: Chelsea

I'm sorry I wasn't strong or mature enough to keep you. You were 12 weeks gestation approximately so I never found out what sex you were but I always thought you were a girl and would have been called Chelsea. I wish I could go back and do things differently. I've always felt I didn't have any right to grieve for you openly as it was my decision in the end but I'm sure you know the hours I have spent crying with so much emotion, the times I was so overwhelmed with heartache that I nearly joined you, and how I still long for you even now, so many years later. The Lord always has a plan and I'm sure our brief time together will be put to use in some way to help others. You will always be in my heart. I love you sweetheart, until we meet again. Mummy xx



1/10/2021 - United States
Mother
Baby Name: sweet baby

Dear sweet baby,

I was selfish, and scared. I think of you often!

Love mom
   



1/6/2021 - United States
C + Q
Baby Name: Cas

I'm sorry. I don't regret what happened, but I wish that it never happened in the first place. I love you. I really, really do. I know that Q does too. I hope that you can forgive me, and we'll be together one day. I'll always remember you. I love you, and I hope that you can find peace. I'll do what I can to honor you in my life, and I needed something material to remember you by, so I'm doing this for you. I wish it could have worked out. I need closure, and I hope you can rest peacefully. I wish I could express what I feel, but this will have to do. Goodbye. 



12/10/2020 - Turkey
my first.
Baby Name: Ada Jaden

I have just one regret for my whole life. I wasn't brave enough to keep you. I am still upset for that.
If I take the time back, I would never give up on you.
I love you more than anything in this world.
And I will love you more than anything in this world forever.
I am sorry, I didn't have a chance to keep you.
Please, know I love you most.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you.
I feel lonely and sad every day.
I hope you forgive me.
I always loved you, and always will.
Mommy will love and miss you forever.
You were too beautiful to come into this world.
Your place in my heart is bigger than my heart.  



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