I was 22 years old when I found out I was pregnant. It was just me, no father in the picture. My mom and my aunt both tried to convince me that abortion would be the best option, and both of them were going to help me pay for the abortion, but I stood up for my baby and decided on keeping it. I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl on September 20, 2013.
My second pregnancy was when I was 26. Unplanned like my first one, but things were different for me. I was a single mother raising my beautiful three year old daughter, and I was just starting to get my life rolling. Had a job, had a car, had my own apartment, and I was happy with life. My second pregnancy made me think, and the word "abortion" entered my mind. I was mad at myself for even thinking such a thing, but over the next few weeks I told myself that abortion would be the easy way out. I don't want to be "THAT GIRL" that is unmarried with two children with two different fathers. I don't want this accident to destroy my wonderful little life that I got going for me. I don't want anybody judgment me for having a second child.
I told my mom about my pregnancy, and told her I planned on having an abortion. My mom gave me the greatest of hugs and the most support possible, she never even asked if I was sure I wanted to do this. I always wonder if things would have been different if she asked.
I aborted my second baby on June 10, 2017 in Whittier, California. It wasn't until the second that my baby was being aborted when I knew that I made the wrong choice. I started crying, nearly having an anxiety attack, and the nurse just tried to calm me down by saying "just a few more minutes."
For my baby I just want to say that mom will always love you. You should be running around this apartment right now trying to take over the world, but I took that away. Your sister is 7 years old, and maybe one day I will have the courage on telling her about you. I know I will be forgiven, but not a day goes by that I don't think of what should have been. I would have made it work, but the easy way out felt like an easy choice. I am sorry,.