Brenden- you are always in my mind and in my heart. I miss you every day. I still can't understand why you had to go so soon. I pray I will see you again so I can hold you and tell you how much I love you. Love, Mom    

Carter, you would be 34 now, my child that first made me a Mom. You are always in my thoughts, prayers and dreams. I pray with everything that I will see you again, hold you, tell you everything. I am so happy you are with God and he is taking care of you. I miss you every day. Love, Mom     

Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. I still wish things were different and that you were here. I wish I had been braver and stronger and not let people scare me, bully me, or push me into a decision I did not want. I pray you will forgive me and that God will forgive me and that I will see you again. I love you and I am truly sorry. Love your Mom.    

For my baby boy, to whom I offer a lifelong opus and a love without end – my angel in heaven. November 11, 2000 

I’m so grateful for the short amount of time I carried you in my womb. It was 12 years ago Dad and I gave into our fears and allowed the unthinkable to happen. I am forever sorry, but also hopeful as God healed us both through Rachel’s Vineyard, and we are forever changed, both by your life, and by your death. May you speak to thousands here and speak life through us. Where once there was only the silence of your death keeping us bound, now we will speak for you baby Grace, to hopefully touch the hearts of many.  

Today I send you my darling Angels my love. I continue to grieve for you everyday and wish that I could have done something to make up for murdering you.

I keep dreaming of children and now I know that even though I never saw you or held you, never cared for you, did anything for you, you visit me in my dreams when I worry about your souls.

A Nun said that Divine Mother Mary has been taking care of you and that she has given me Infant Jesus of Prague for comfort when I grieve. When you grieve may this be true, that Mother Mary comforts you as her Son comforts me.

Thank you for loving me, thank you for the short time that you spent with me. I wish that I could have had you, but at every time that I aborted, I made a selfish decision. To my miscarried babies I never understood why you left, but I trust God that this was the best decision made on your behalf.

The best part is that when you visit me you are all happy, beautiful and perfect. I wish that you would be each other's company in heaven. I used to be so scared that you went to satan, but now I know better. May the only torment you ever suffer be the way in which you left this earth.

I live everyday to see all of my babies one day in heaven. Visit your three sisters if you can and get to know them and give them joy. Especially visit your eldest sister who left us and never looked back.

May my prayers continue to assist you and if you have been assisting me I thank you, I love you, Bless you. I am grateful for you, all of you my Angels. You are my loves.

God Bless your souls and stay in the loving protection of our Divine Mother.
           

We had just had your beautiful sister, Dyana when you came into being. You surprised us, as it was too soon after her birth.

You lived for three months, enjoying my warmth, and I'm grateful for the time we had with you.

The birds came. Pounding at the windows with their feet. You had left us ... for another family maybe? It was April.

You are loved each and every year. I cry as I write wondering if you left for the Heavens or if you graced another home.

You have a brother too. He arrived just over a year later in the Summer. His name is Davis. You have two wonderful siblings that make us proud.

We love you and Miss you and Hope you are happy in Heaven or with your new family.

Forever loved,
Momma and Pappa   

Mommy loves you two very much. I regret and feel pain everyday. I want to hold you in my arms so bad. I'll be waiting for the day to see your faces. Please forgive me..
I love you
I love you
I love you...   

I wanted to make one of these for closure. Me losing you guys makes me feel more guilt than I ever could imagine. I just hope you'll forgive me.

The memories of that day have haunted me for almost 30 years now. Only heaviness, sorrow, and regret lingered afterwards. At the time, I was numb and thought I had no choice. I was fragmented, full of pain, and felt alone. I remember going to the library before that day and sitting there reading books on child care. I thought I had to 'find myself' first before being a parent, but you would have shown me who I am. I was content when you were with me for that short time. I dreamt of you recently and hope we will be together again someday. I miss you my only child in this life. Please forgive me. I want to lay down my grief now until we meet again. I love you.    

Thank you for allowing me never to forget you. You are always in my heart and mind. Momme loves you rest well, baby. 

I loved you from the moment I knew I had you inside me. I will always love you my princess. You’re my forever angel baby. 

My dear babies:), my sweet hearts:) I love you and you live deep in my heart. I am so sorry about my acts against you, I don't have words... Just I want to say: that moment I didn't know what I did. I am sorry for everything, for your deep pain. I believe that you stay near God and He cares about you. Every day I am with you in my prayers and I will meet you in the sky. You are my love babies, I am your mother. Please, forgive me and know that I am with you always here on the Earth. God gave me Eugenia-Maria, she is your sister here on the Earth. I embrace you warmly my dear babies, my sweet hearts.             

When life is over for me here, I assure you that I will be there to hold you. For now, run free. I love you, little one as your dad calls you.

Nothing else in my life terrifies me, hurts me, and makes more desperate still today than that I was able to abort you, my dear Paulito. I got pregnant at the age of 20, and when I turned to my mother she said to me that I had to abort you, Paulito, because she would never give me any kind of financial or moral support to become your mother. I didn't know who to turn to, because I felt I couldn't trust my boyfriend, as he was a violent and abusive man. Moreover, the doctors lied to me when I asked them for an advice, as they said to me that an embryo is not a living child, so that I would be convinced to abort. I regret deeply that I aborted you, Paulito, and it is killing me inside still after many years. I will never forgive myself for aborting you, because I can't forgive myself for not letting you live. When my brother committed suicide and shortly after at the age of 23, I ended up in another dysfunctional relationship, and I attached myself to this evil guy, who treated me like an object, That when I got pregnant with you, my dear Maria Teresita and my dear Maria Faustinita, and I ended up aborting again when the evil boyfriend abandoned me. I felt dead inside and let evil take over my heart again and aborted you, my dear daughters Maria Teresita and Maria Faustinita, which I will deeply regret until my last breath on this earth. My dearest babies Paulito, Maria Teresita, and Maria Faustinita, since then the Lord Jesus saved me, He appeared to me one morning in May 2016, and my life has changed completely. Thanks to my dear Lord Jesus Christ and you, my dear little babies Paulito, Maria Teresita and Maria Faustinita, have taught me what Real Love is. I will love you and honour you deeply forever by doing God's will. I beg you on my knees, my Paulito, Maria Teresita, and Maria Faustinita and God Almighty, to please forgive me, because I should never ever have aborted you, never ever. I believe in divine justice, and I accept to carry your crosses Paulito, Maria Teresita, and Maria Faustinita and to live in penance for the rest of my life. May you Rest in Peace and Have Eternal Life in God's and the Holy Virgin's Mary hearts, Paulito, Maria Teresita, and Maria Faustinita, until we can be together forever as a family in Heaven, Amen. Thank you, Jesus, for saving me. I deeply repent forever my Lord for aborting my children Paulito, Maria Teresita, and Maria Faustinita, Amen.      

I never thought I'd ever have to make a choice like this.
I hope one day you can forgive me.
If I could, I'd do anything just to go back and change things.
I love you so much, this is goodbye for now.
One day we'll meet again. 

I am so very sorry for doing what I did. Please forgive me each. I am your Mother and always will be. I have asked God to forgive me several times and still carry the guilt and shame for the horrible sins I committed. Please forgive me for not allowing you to live and being so selfish and self-centered. I hope God allows us to meet and reunite one day. I love you all. Your Mom always    

When my earthly journey ends, may I be greeted by you at Heaven’s door.   

To my love,

I was so excited when I found out you were with me, I will never forget that moment. I have this burning desire to see you, but little baby we won’t meet in this lifetime. For most of my life I have felt so alone but when you were with me I felt complete. I think about you and miss you every day, and I’m so sorry for what I did, but my circumstances were such that I couldn’t keep you. You will always be in my heart, and I can’t wait for the day we are together again.

Love,
Mummy  

My dear children,
I have often thought of the terrible pain of losing you and giving up the opportunity to shower my love upon you. I was young, misguided, and justified my decision senselessly.
How I wish I had the opportunity to make this choice again.
I cannot imagine the pain you felt when you learned of my rejection of you nor the physical pain of that horrible moment. I pray you will forgive me, and I promise to pray for you every day for the rest of my days. Please pray for your brother Christian, that his soul may be saved and reunited with you to enjoy heaven with the Light and Love of God. Forgive me, I have no justification, only regrets, much pain and enormous shame. God bless you, and may your Abuela share her love on joyful ways with you until I see you, by the Grace of God.    

I never named my baby, because I didn't give them a chance to live long enough to know what they were going to be. I am filled with so much guilt and pain. I have so much regret, and it hurts. I'm sorry. I wish I would have stood up and said "no." I wish I would have gotten the chance to love you.
I know that one day I'll be with you again, and I'll remember you until the day I die.