1/17/2020 - United States
Baby Brother Bender
Baby Name: Ghost

To my courageous baby:

I believe we are all sent here with our goals & missions to achieve. You, clever child, you chose the most difficult of all scenarios. Either way we wanted you to know you were successful in your goal. Daddy and I are so proud of you, to be so brave to pick this family. We were honored & unworthy. You should know your brother holds a special place for you in his heart. Even though he lacked the words, his feelings were very apparent. I'm so sorry we didn't get more time together. Whispering my gratitude as I felt you leave, somehow I knew you were not alone. Nana would always love you, in this world and the next, for all time. You are the inspiration for this family to succeed in our mission here on Earth. Until we see you again just know Mommo & Daddo love you so very much & you are forever in our hearts.  



1/7/2020 - United States
Divine Mercy
Baby Name: Catherine, Emmanuel, & Lucas

My beloved angels, thank you for the amazing gift of you! I love you! By God's divine love, and mercy, I was blessed to be able to spiritually baptize you. Thank you Lord for providing me healing. I'm eternally grateful for your love, mercy, and forgiveness! I have experienced your undying love for me and for my heavenly children and I look forward to the day when I get to meet you, and them, face to face, in your divine light!

A broken mother's heart has been restored by Divine Mercy! Thank you Lord for taking pity on me, a sinner.     



1/5/2020 - United States
She would be 2 months old right now
Baby Name: Violet Morris

I gave birth to my first child on March 5, 2018. Her Name is Olivia Morris.
I should have given birth to my second child in November of 2019, a due date of the 5th, but that never happened. The reason is because I aborted my second child.
I am a Christian, but for the first time ever I thought about abortion. I knew if I did it that I would be okay and that I could take care of my daughter, but I never thought about the consequences of how I would feel afterwords.
I aborted my second child, a daughter that I have named Violet, on March 30, 2019, She was 8 weeks old. Taking her out of me took less than 10 minutes. I killed my baby is what I did. I walked in and killed it, and they let me legally do it.
I love my first born, I never thought of aborting her, and I couldn't imagine what my life would be like without her. But sadly my second child was thought of in a different way. Why?
The abortion clinic that this happened at is only five miles from me. I had no idea we had one until I looked for one. Since my abortion I have stopped at it a few times, just looking at the building, wishing I never walked inside. I try not to cry, but it happens.
I pray that one day that abortion will never be an option. It feels like an easy way out, but it isn't. March 30th and November 5th will be days that I never forget.



12/31/2019 - United States
My Third Child
Baby Name: Angelica

I conceived you on August 31, 2018. You had a five year old brother and an 18 month old sister, and both of them would have been ready for you, but I felt like I had my hands full. I felt like I could not give you what you needed or what you wanted, and I felt like your siblings would be punished in some way. I knew I loved you, but I had a part of me that said that I should wait before I had a third.
My mother told me that it was best on not having you, and I agreed. I did try and fight for you, but even I knew that I should not have you. It was me who made the decision, and I am the only one to blame.
October 20, 2018 was the day I planned on removing you, but a good friend of mine found herself in the hospital, and she needed me. I was so grateful that I did not remove you, but I still told myself that I couldn't have you. I truly believe that God was telling me that I should keep you, that I should love you and protect you, but I did not listen.
I aborted you on Tuesday October 30, 2018. You were in me for 8 weeks and 4 days but your gestational age was 10 weeks 5 days. I was awake when you were taken out of me, and the very moment when you were suctioned out of my body is when I knew I made the wrong decision. I felt you leave me, and I died inside because of it. I knew at that moment that I could have taken care of you and given you a wonderful life, but instead I tossed you out like you were nothing.
The next day was Halloween, and I could see you in every child's face. I cried on the inside that afternoon, and I cried tears that night when I was alone.
You would be seven months old now. Your brother is now seven and your sister is almost three. They will never know you, and I will never know you, but we would have taken such good care of you.
I promise you that I will never forget you. I have given you a birthday of May 25th, and I will never forget you or the date I should have had you in my arms.
I am sorry.



12/29/2019 - United States
My World
Baby Name: Chance Cureton

Mommy Loves You So Much, And I Miss You. You are My motivation to be better and remain humble and strive to obtain all my goals💕  



12/12/2019 - Canada
Ash
Baby Name: Gabrial

Mama misses you always. I love you more than anything. Your dad also loves you. I will come soon and be with you forever. My only wish is to hold you at least one time. I always wonder if you looked like me or daddy. I love your dad because he gave me you . i miss u, i love u .. Gabi ..ummah.    



12/11/2019 - United States
Jami
Baby Name: Free

My sweet precious butterfly, for years it has been your smile
I have longed to see; longing to hold you close in my arms
With your innocent eyes gazing up at me.

My sweet precious butterfly, no words could ever express
the tearing pain that has gripped my heart,
the remorse I have felt with every breath.

Praise be to Jesus, you were set free.
Free to soar through the blue skies of heaven,
through fields of sweet roses and flowers that gleam.

As the face of God shines upon you, I know you are at rest.
With his loving arms around you, holding you to his chest.

Praise be to Jesus, the pain and longing are over.
No longer will I hold on to you, trying to keep you near,
for all has been washed away, all my pain and fears.

I know now with sweet assurance that one day, for the first time
(and what a time it will be),
I will see your smiling face as I hold you in my arms
with those innocent eyes gazing up at me.

I love you my precious butterfly.
Go now, fly and be free.

By Jami   



12/7/2019 - United States
Harper Angel
Baby Name: Harrison Harper

Sweet baby Harper, I was only able to carry you for a short month, then God had other plans for you, as I lost you in July 1996. I wanted you to know after all these years that we haven’t forgotten. You have two little brothers born in 1998 & 2000. We love and will never forget that you would have been our first child. I will see you again someday in Heaven. Love Mom, Dad, Brian, and Brett  



12/6/2019 - United States
Heartbeats and Babyfeet
Baby Name: Kayleigh Anne, Alex David & Avery Roherty

My dearest children, I need and want you all to know how much I love you. I am so extremely sorry and regretful for allowing your lives to be ended before you even had a chance. The one place and the one person that should have kept you safe failed you. Through the Grace of God our creator, He has forgiven me and has taken care of the three of you in His glorious kingdom. I pray and hope I get to hold you all in my arms....all at the same time. I will shower you with love and kisses and hugs. I know you are all doing great things for our Lord. I know you have watched over your brother and sister here on earth with God's help. I know you are showering Grandma and Grandpa with all your love. Until I am blessed to meet you I will leave this for you now. I am your mommy and I love you with every cell that created me. I have not and never will forget you.    



12/3/2019 - United States
Angela Nicole Shearrow
Baby Name: Angela Nicole Shearrow

To my sweet baby... mommy is so sorry. I love you forever. I thank the Lord that He gave me the chance to hold you before I gave you back. I know you heard my last words before you were taken from me. I wanted you. You were mine. I will see you in heaven, my precious baby.  



12/2/2019 - United States
Theo's Grandma
Baby Name: Theo

Dear Theo,
Your beautiful happy soul and spirit will forever be in my heart. I'll never forget you. I'm your grandma, and I love you! God gave me your name. Theo means divine gift! I'll see you in heaven.
Love Grandma G   



12/2/2019 - Australia
With Regret
Baby Name: David

I never got to see you!
I never got to hold you!
But you are in my heart where I can love you! 



12/2/2019 - Australia
With Regret
Baby Name: David

I never got to see you!
I never got to hold you!
But you in my heart, I can love you! 



11/27/2019 - United States
Baby Scott
Baby Name: Daniel Wayne

We will meet someday at the feet of Jesus. No more pain, no more grief.   



11/26/2019 - Australia
John
Baby Name: Alex

Today marks two years to the day since your mother, my wife, decided to end your life over my objections. I don’t even know if you were a boy or a girl – but I chose the name Alex for you (as it can be a boy's or girl's name). Alex, I wanted you to live, to be born and to join our family and meet your two sisters. I wanted to meet you, to see you grow up and live your life.

My wife, out of fear, denied you that opportunity. She was scared. She was in a tough place at work. She had only been there for a year, having moved from a job she loved but had outgrown. Her boss was promoted to a new role shortly after she started, and his replacement made her life a living hell. She was bullied relentlessly and ended up with an anxiety disorder and fears of engaging in self-harm.

However, at the time she found out she was pregnant with you, she was well on the road to recovery with the help of a psychologist. She was applying for jobs. She’d had interviews, referees had been contacted.

But she was scared she would not find another job and would end up ‘stuck at home with three kids under six’ and that the ‘stress of having three kids would drive me suicidal’ – even though her treating psychologist had said there was no such risk.

I tried. I tried so hard to save you Alex. I tried to rationally examine the situation with my wife:
• We were financially stable, very well-off, even. We had more than a year of our salaries in cash savings, so we wouldn’t struggle for money even if one of us didn’t work for a year or more
• We had family and paid support (an au pair, who was great)
• We had a large house with a spare bedroom for you.
• You would need at most only six weeks off work (if she had another c-section) if that is what you wanted
• I have enough leave that I can take 6 months off work to raise the child at full pay, or 12 months at half-pay (which we can have afford) so you can go back to your career
• The impact on your career will be minimal, you are leaving her bullying boss and job.
• My mother (with whom she got along with fantastically) had recently retired and would help us out in a flash, and lived just down the road.

But it wasn’t enough. I tried. I tried to save you Alex, I really did. I tried to explain to my wife that we could afford to have you, that her career would progress, that she would find a new job, that she wouldn’t become suicidal (which her treating psychologist had also told her wouldn’t happen), that we could do this.

But I failed. She chose to end your life out of fear. I am so sorry I could not save you Alex.

Please forgive me.

Alex, I am also angry at the clinic that enabled my wife to end your life. Where we lived at the time, abortion was only available where there was a substantive risk to the mother or child, including socio-economic risks (i.e. poverty), domestic violence or medical/psychological risk. That is, there was not abortion-on-demand. There had to be a "reason" related to a risk.

No such risks existed.

We were a loving, financially secure, church-going family. Despite her fears, there was no risk to you Alex, or to her. I am angry that the clinic simply listened to my wife’s fears and didn’t even bother to ring her doctor or psychologist, or simply make her wait a week and see a counselor. Maybe if they had, they would have refused to kill you on the grounds you were not at risk, and nor was there any risk to your mother.

But that didn’t happen. On 27 November 2017, my wife ended your life, despite me pleading and begging her not to. I am so sorry I failed you, Alex. I wanted to meet you, to hold you and see you grow.

Two years on, the pain remains. I have come to understand that my wife was truly scared, that she truly believed she couldn’t cope, and that her mental health would have deteriorated had you been born. But I also know, deep down, that she was wrong, and it was wrong to take out those fears on you, Alex, and to end your life.

Alex, I love you. I hope that you are with your stillborn cousin Daniel in heaven, along with my grandparents and your grandparents on your mum’s side. Alex, I hope you can forgive me for not saving you, for not finding the right words to persuade my wife, your mum, to keep you and not end your life. But, mostly, I hope that you will forgive your mum for what she did out of fear.

Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you, Alex. Your sisters have often expressed a strong desire for another sibling – a sign I take that our family is not complete, and you, Alex, were meant to complete it.

I also pray that God will forgive me for failing to save you, and will forgive my wife for her weakness that ended your life. I also pray that our marriage will heal over the years to come, and that one day, your mum, my wife, will find it in her hear to apologise, not for hurting me (which she has) but for ending your life. I hope she repents and asks for your forgiveness God.

I also pray for other married and partnered men who find themselves with a pregnant wife or partner who is questioning having the baby, or scared, that they find the words I didn’t, to save the life of their children. I pray that more men who have had their unborn children killed over their objections find the courage to speak out with grace, humility, and dignity, to give a voice to the pain that I felt, still feel, and want no other man to go through.

Most of all, I pray that God takes my little unborn Alex into His kingdom and protects Alex in a manner I could not and failed to. I love you, Alex, and miss you every day.

John
 



11/26/2019 - United States
Baby Huffman
Baby Name: Baby Kylee ( I always felt you were my girl)

My beautiful child, I love you so much, it hurts really bad sometimes. It was love that you became a part of me. I was so excited and scared, because I was 19 years old, but I wanted you so much! Your dad at the time didn't think so, which resulted in a forced decision that took a piece of my heart that can't ever be filled. I wish I hadn't felt so alone, that I had someone to help me, someone to say it would be ok and that they would have helped me. I miss you so much, and sometimes it hurts really bad. I long to see your face. You have never and will never be forgotten. It has been 26 years now that I lost you, my precious sweet baby. I know Jesus has you, He is your daddy now. That brings peace to me. It is just the emptiness of you not being here that hurts so much! There is no sorry deep enough to tell you. However, my love for you is so, so great! I long for the day to meet you in heaven, to hug you and spend eternity with you. I loved you then, I love you now and will love you forever. Please forgive me, your mommy.  



11/26/2019 - United States
Baby Fraley
Baby Name: Howard IV or Summer Faith

Sweet Child, you were conceived in love and killed in fear. Your dad and I let fear overcome our love for you, and we have been sorry for each and every day since. We missed having you bless our lives. You have two full siblings, who are now 30 and 24. You would have been 32 last June. We have always thought you were my husband’s namesake, but I also had a girls name picked out, just in case. Your sister and brother know about you now that they are adults- and so do all your grandparents (two are already there in Heaven with you, no doubt enjoying your company) and extended family. We will never stop being sorry for missing out on the beauty that was you. Rest In Peace, dear child of my heart. Psalm 139    



11/26/2019 - United States
Baby E
Baby Name: Baby E

You are my first. You are my unknown. You are my reason for everything I am today.
I love you and I am sorry.
12/16/2011    



11/14/2019 - United States
Stephanie
Baby Name: Baby Kyndall Payne

To my sweet baby. It’s been 13 years since I lost you, and I think about you everyday. I know you are around me, and I know one day you are going to come back to me and Travis. May you continue to communicate with me as I know you do. One day we will be able to be together forever in Heaven. Until then, continue to guide our lives and help bring mommy and daddy back together. I love you, my precious baby.        



10/21/2019 - United States
Heidi
Baby Name: Clare John Miller

My love and my sweet Clare,
I am always with you and you are always with me. I know some day that I will be with you again and run through that flowered field enjoying ourselves. Until that day my sweet, know I love you and think of you often!

All my love,
Mama  



10/18/2019 - United States
M.N.
Baby Name: 3 unborn babies

My babies! Oh, how I long to have seen you and known you. My heart aches so much for the grave mistakes (so many) that I have made. Please forgive me! Baby 1, you did not have a heartbeat and passed in my womb. Baby 2, your father never knew you existed, and I was so hurt and in pain and felt I was already not a good mom to your two other half-siblings. Baby 3, you have a full sister that I wish you could have met. You both would have been so close. Your sister is now pregnant and will be having her early next year, so you would have been an aunt. I wasn't thinking clearly when I made the choices that I did, and I very much regret those before you and before God. I pray for forgiveness and to be reunited with you some day. May you all rest in peace until we can be together! You have now met your half brother, who died by suicide in 2017. I know he is comforting you all and waiting for our return. Love you more than words can say. Your momma forever 



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