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 Memorial: 570
 Date: Thursday
United States of America
Child's Name: baby cortez
As I write this my daughter is about to give birth to my first grandchild. A true blessing and pray for a healthy delivery and mom and baby are safe.

In 1979 I went to Kent State University at the age of 17. Scared and alone I met up with Alex. He gave me the attention I needed and gave me more.. a pregnancy. I was only 17 .. and because he was Hispanic I knew that my family would not accept him or this child. Surprisingly what made my decision was in High School we had someone come into the school and discuss abortions. Ignorant at that time to me it was just a procedure. I didn't know the love I would have for this child or guilt of my Decision I would have afterwards. I made them put me under during the procedure because I know If I was awake I would not have been able to go thru with it. I wish I would have walked away and had the child. I married and had two children. I married a man I knew I didn't love.. He was just a "settled for " man. I didn't think I was worthy of anyone else. He did drugs... drank.. and I tried to save him. And I did .. at least for a while. My marriage ended after 27 years. After the 27 years.. four months later.. Unfinished business with Alex - he came back into my life. We discussed we cried about the unborn child. I thought we were meant to be together.. but this ended also.. He was a man with Many woman. How would my life have been if this child was here on earth. How would his/her life have been? I know now.. I should have had the baby .. gave this child a chance. I wanted to say I'm Sorry!! This should not have been my choice. God can only decide!! Please forgive me!

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 Memorial: 569
 Date: Tuesday
United States of America
Child's Name: Ezra/Emery(wasn't sure of your gender)
My darling sweet child, oh how much I love you. I fell in love with you from the day I discovered I was pregnant. I felt this fullness inside of my heart. I was 16. Your father was with me the day I took the test, he remained numb and normal. We didn't know what to do. I wanted to keep you and was willing to do anything to make that happen, I didn't care about what anyone else had to say. I saw you for the first time at 6 weeks and your heart beat at 147. I fell in love even more. I hid my pregnancy from my family for a while, until your dad couldn't and told his mom about you. She supported us 100% and was willing to let me live in her house with you. Unfortunately, when your dad told his father, he immediately brought up abortion and would not have it any other way. He told your dad I had two days to tell my mother. Your dad's mother changed her mind about me keeping you once your father's dad told her we could not keep you. We were "too young". When I told my mom we were talking about my birthday plans on the weekend. She didn't talk to me for two days. I starved myself. Threw up. She told me the best choice was to abort you or I would have to move out and go on welfare. She would help me but I could not live under her roof and she meant it. I couldn't see your father for a while after the abortion. I turned 17 years old and the following Saturday morning of June 13th, I went into the clinic and lost you forever. From the moment I walked into that door, I knew I would regret this forever. Knowing I had a life inside of me filled me with so much joy. Before the procedure, they had to give me an ultrasound.. I got to see a glimpse of you in that little picture, the lady did not even bother hiding from me. I didn't want to lose you. I honestly didn't care what anyone said. My mom went with me and even though she says she didn't force me, it felt like she did since I would have to leave if I kept you. I didn't have anywhere to go. All three grandparents were against giving you life and your father was too. He kept telling me we weren't ready, which we weren't. I love you so much. When I had to change into my gown, I kept crying crying and begging for your forgiveness because I feel so selfish. I should have given you a chance at life. You could have been someone big like a president or superstar. I never felt love like I did with you inside of me. You filled my heart. I created you and carried you for as long as I was able to. I regret losing you. I wish you were here with me. If I could go back in time I would have not gone through with it. I didn't want to do it! I swear I didn't. I am so sorry. When they gave me the shot to put me to sleep, I began crying and the nurse was getting nervous. I could see the pain she shared with me. I was the youngest girl in the clinic. I turned 17 the day before. Now every year your birthday will come right after mine. The 13th. You would have been born December 4th, 2015 a week before your dad's birthday and our 2nd year anniversary. You were the perfect gift. I am so sorry my angel. I regret it more every single day. I did not have anything to offer you. I did not want you raised by someone else. I didn't want you to suffer with me not around enough because I had to go to school and work a lot to support you. But now I WISH I would've because I miss you so much. I love you my little baby Ezra or Emery. I hope you find it in your little heart to forgive me for my selfish decision. Just know I wanted you from the moment I discovered you were in my tummy. I just thought things would get better between families If I did what they wanted and followed my brain, rather than follow my heart. I love you and am so grateful you are in the hands of god. I love you and miss you. Please forgive me. You would've been 2 months next week. I love you
Your mommy <3

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 Memorial: 568
 Date: Friday
your heartbroken mom
United States of America
Child's Name: Sean, Patrick, and Stephanie
Please forgive me. You have 3 brothers and 1 sister here - I wish you all were together. Please God, in Heaven!
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 Memorial: 567
 Date: Thursday
United States of America
Child's Name: A piece of my heart
To my baby, that I selfishly aborted. You would have just turned 19 a couple of months ago. I am so sorry that I did that to you. I am so sorry that I never gave you a chance at life. I am so sorry that I only thought of myself and never took you into consideration. Yes, I knew what I was doing was wrong at the time and yet, I still chose to do it. At the time, I thought I had no other choice, or there wasn't any other choice that I could see at the time. You were created as the result of a sinful adulterous affair. I was scared. I knew my husband would know you were not his and he would take our children away from me and I'd never see them again. At least that is what I believed at that time. I was afraid of him.I was also afraid that if I did have you, that your biological father would try to take you from me. I was so wrong on so many levels. It was the absolute worst experience I have ever been through. I carried the burden of that sin around for so many years to myself. I finally ended that affair and later decided that I needed to reveal this sin to my husband if I ever expected our marriage to be what it should. I totally regret that decision now. Even though by the time I had revealed this to him, I had repented of that sin, had been saved, and was forgiven by God, my husband ridiculed me for years for my bad decision. He verbally and emotionally abused me not only for that decision but in his eyes I was just a horrible person in general and whatever I did to prove that I had changed, I could never measure up in his eyes. He even revealed this dark secret that I had entrusted him with to our other children once they had grown older. I guess I deserved that, but if anyone was going to tell them, I think it should have been me. At any rate...all of that is neither here nor there. Bottom line is, I did what I did. I was wrong. I think of you often. I wonder if you were a boy or a girl, what would your life have been like now. I am thankful that Jesus took you and wrapped you in His loving arms on September 30, 1995. I know I will never deserve to see you or know you once I get to Heaven, but I so hope to. I pray you have forgiven me as Jesus has. I know that your older brother or sister lost to miscarriage 6 years earlier was there to welcome you and play with you and hold you as well. I know that there are many loved ones there now who know you as I never have.
Until we meet in Glory, know that I love you sweet child of mine.

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 Memorial: 566
 Date: Wednesday
jemma crosbie and lance evans
New Zealand
Child's Name: lily rose crosbie evans
I lost at ten weeks I had you for such a short time but you were so loved and cherish my mum and dad and family and extended family I think about you everyday and u have a special place in my heart and I have a special teddy bear for you
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 Memorial: 565
 Date: Monday
United States of America
Child's Name: Austin & Jasmine
My sweet Austin, you would now be 17 and my sweet Jasmine, you would now be 15. I can't believe I made the same mistake twice but I was young and I felt I had no other choice. I now know that I did. The only thing that gives me solace is knowing you are both in God's arms waiting for the day to meet me in Heaven. I love you both sooooooo much more than words can ever express. I miss you both each & every day.

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 Memorial: 564
 Date: Monday
United Kingdom
Child's Name: My baby girl...Angel
My darling baby, you would be about 1 year now, you already know how much I regret my decision to send you to heaven, from all those times I looked up to the sky to talk to you, in the early days, I try my hardest each and everyday to keep strong so one day I will deserve to finally be with you in heaven. You are safer up above in Gods loving arms, I couldn't have given you the life you so deserved my sweetheart x like I used to tell you every night, I love you Angel, im sorry for being weak at the moment, I felt I wasn't worthy of being your mother and showing my love to you, We know our time together was short, but your place in my heart will always remain, you are so special and our bond will not break
I will love you always, Angel
Happy 1st Birthday

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 Memorial: 563
 Date: Monday
United States of America
Child's Name: Gracie
Love, miss you everyday.
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 Memorial: 562
 Date: Thursday
Anita, Graham and Sebastian
United States of America
Child's Name: William
for our son, William, who we never got to meet but who is loved most deeply. Never a day goes by that we do not think of you -BADWORD-
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 Memorial: 561
 Date: Wednesday
Laurie Howe
United States of America
Child's Name: baby Howe
To my sweet baby that I never got to meet because of my own stupidity. I should have fought to be able to keep you. I made the biggest mistake of my life and I have been battling myself trying to forgive myself. I know God has forgiven me but, I am unable to forgive myself or forget. I know you are in Heaven with God and safe in his love. I cannot wait to meet you and give you all the love I have in my heart for you.
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