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 Memorial: 555
 Date: Wednesday
United States of America
Child's Name: Felix

Its been just over ten years since your mother and I did a terrible thing and went to get an abortion, instead of letting you be born into this world. You are still loved and cherished, even though I never had the chance to meet you.

I have missed you almost every day since then these past 10 years, and I have struggled with my own fault and blame, often lingering in depression and despair.

I have also written to you before, as has your mother Sarah, in various ways. She wrote you letters, that we read together at a cemetery. It was not easy for me to come to grips with why think we did what we did. We had all the excuses people use, we were in college, we werent ready to be parents, etc etc. Looking back even just a few months later, it was quite obvious that we were wrong. I should have done more to try to persuade your mother to raise you together, to find love together and to give you the family and love that you deserved.

I failed you then, and I blame myself. I can ask for your forgiveness and for the Lord's forgiveness, but honestly, I am very much doubting that someone such as myself is remotely worthy of such. True Christians on here may say that even a sinner such as myself is worthy of forgiveness in the eyes of the Lord, but I honestly cannot understand. I accept my fate, and live with my sin from a decade ago.

I wanted to tell you how sorry I am for everything that we have missed, due to my own weakness and fault. When I see fathers my age, in their mid thirties, with children aged nine, it becomes readily apparent just how much I miss you. Miss getting to know you, to hold you, to play together, to read together, to walk together, to hold you when you are upset, to tell you it is going to be ok. I miss everything I never got to do with you.

Now, there are two other things that I also wanted to tell you.

First, is that you are not alone. You have a baby brother who passed away in February 2013, at 12 weeks old in the womb, who never got to be born. Though his mother is different than yours, as she is my wife and has been for seven years now, he is just as much your brother as I am your father. I may have written to you of him before, but I wanted to tell you to be on the look out for him, if you see him around. I suppose he would be just past 2 years old now, and I have every reason to believe he would be just as spirited as Im sure you would have been. Please take care of him if you see him. I know you will.

Second, is that I want you to know that you have a new baby sister who was born two months ago. Charlotte is a beautiful baby girl, and took years and years of difficult fertility treatments for my wife to finally be able to have a child of her own. It will likely be many years before you ever get to meet her, but Im sure you will love her just as as much as I do. You would have been a great older brother, to your beautiful baby sister.

Every day I see her, and somedays more than others, it reminds me of you. Often when I am holding her it makes me cry when I think about losing you, some ten years ago. Its hard to explain all the regret and remorse that fills my heart so often when I think about all that you and I have missed together.

Im know nothing I say here can change what happened in the past, or can forgive me for my sins. What happened to you is not your fault, and I want you to know I think of you and pray for you often. I love you far more than you know, and cannot tell you often enough how much I miss you.

Love, Dad

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 Memorial: 554
 Date: Friday
Your Mother....
Child's Name: My beautiful baby...
I love you so much. It has been almost 35 years. I will never forget you...over the years there were times my arms ached to hold rock you and care for you...touch your little face...feel your warmth against my chest as I hold you. I want you to know I do regret my decision. I would give my life to be able to go back and un-decide. If I could change one woman's mind by posting this....or let one women who has had an abortion are loved by a forgiving, merciful God who wants to take "you" in His arms and heal your hurt.
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 Memorial: 553
 Date: Thursday
Susan Huskey
United States of America
Child's Name: Baby A
You will be forever in my heart, forever in my thoughts and never be forgotten, I will always remember you on April 15th,your due date...My situation at that moment did not allow me to think things thru thoroughly and your father Scott did not want you but I did and I am sorry that I did not fight for you and for that I am deeply sorry, I wish I knew if you were a boy or girl so that I could give you a name, so I am going to name you Baby A which the A is the Initial of your fathers last name I love you and miss you deeply and I am grieving now and regretting the poor choice that I made, please forgive me.
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 Memorial: 552
 Date: Tuesday
United States of America
Child's Name: Eleanor Gray
My baby Ellie,
Words cannot describe how I feel. If I could go back in time, I would redo this all. You brought me surprise, but joy. You were my reason to live, and my world. Please forgive me for breaking my promise to you always protect you. I was and am young, and your dad and I were under such pressure. There is no excuse or reason that can make any of this right, but I ask for your forgivness as your mother. I loved you from the very start, and I still do and always will. I will never forget you, you're my first baby, and will always be my baby. I miss you so much, and I am just sorry. But I know you're up in Heaven, for our short 12 weeks together, I will never forget my daughter. Rest in piece my baby.

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 Memorial: 551
 Date: Tuesday
United States of America
Child's Name: Samuel
I was lonely and you came to me. I was afraid and not supported. You filled my heart, you filled my womb, I talked to you and sang you lullabies. Then they came and broke my brittle soul belittling my inspiration, belittling our bond. And I was scared, young and foolish...I did not stand by your side. You left me. I pushed you away. And ever since that day, my little Samuel, there hasnt been a day you have not been in my heart and mind.
17 years have passed. I was your age, and did not listen to my heart.

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 Memorial: 550
 Date: Tuesday
Joyoti Das
Child's Name: Jolly Koley
I do not know your gender, but I feel you were a boy. It was extremely mean, foolish and cowardly of me to lose you. Somewhere I had forgotten that I alone have to fight my own battles, regardless of what your father does. In your memory I am sponsoring a poor little girl. Your elder brother knows about you and regrets he has no playmate. Please forgive me. Your unfortunate mother.
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 Memorial: 549
 Date: Tuesday
Jamie's Mom
United States of America
Child's Name: Jamie Renee Shannon

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 Memorial: 548
 Date: Wednesday
United States of America
Child's Name: Edson Jonathan Jarvis
My baby was lost October 24, 2014 8 weeks and 5 days. I regret my choices of termination. He is in God's hands in a beautiful place, he is also on my my mind and in my heart. My one love that needed me and I failed. He would be due any day, happy birthday meu amour voce nap via set esquecido
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 Memorial: 547
 Date: Monday
Alexis & Gyasi Sims
United States of America
Child's Name: Prince or Princess
I wish I could go and take what I did back. I know that God has forgiven me. I pray that you have forgiven me. I have barely forgiven myself. You changed my life. I know you're beautiful. I am a better me because of you. Wish I could have met you, touch your little face or just hold your little hand if it's part of God's plans maybe we can meet again. Mommy and Daddy love you so much
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 Memorial: 546
 Date: Monday
United States of America
Child's Name: Rowan
My beautiful baby, you were with me for a short time and moved onto the next dimension at an early stage. Your father and I barely knew each other and I was far too young and unstable for a baby but we were doing everything we could to give you a happy and healthy life. Your father is an honorable man and he cares deeply for you. I know you are being raised by my spirit guides who were unable to have children due to early deaths on this earth. I was a vessel for my dearest Morgan and now you are with one of the few people I would trust to raise you if I couldn't. You are forever in my heart and I think about you every morning that I wake up and every night before bed. You are loved by so many here on earth and even more wherever you are now. I love you and I know you love me too, I will see you in another lifetime.
Love, Mom

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